Today I have hit my absolute rock bottom and I’m ashamed to be me…
My gorgeous girl smiles at me with the biggest smile and all I feel is guilt, sadness and ashamed!!
I was given another chance to breastfeed her, I put my all into! I drank and ate so much everyday I thought I was going to pop and Lydia worked hard to make my supply what she needed and now it’s been taken away…. it’s like the doctors don’t understand were human… I now have to feed her as well as somehow decrees my supply again or even get rid of it (I’ve not yet decided) without getting poorly! Gee thanks and I won’t even get started on the emotional side of breastfeeding!
I’m ashamed of myself…. The one thing I wanted to do for her and I can’t, all I’ve done is let her down! Again!
I’m pretty much useless and I’m sorry about that baby girl!